Well since all my friends are writing here in Diaryland and my boyfriend isn’t here to be my perpetual sounding board I thought I would start my own online journal as a cyber-emotional outlet.
What can I say about myself? I’m tall, blonde and slightly crazy. In a sort of spastic, out-of-control way. I’m studying nursing right now but hope to be in medicine next year. I live with the best roommate ever and I adore him almost as much as my Mr. Wonderful boyfriend Foreman who has completely swept me off my feet. The only problem with this lovely picture is that my life is almost entirely up in the air – my romantic relationship is serious but long-distance, my roommate’s job is kind of unstable (although thank God his love life isn’t anymore) and my bank account is careening down a dark tunnel into severe student debt. But I’m trying not to freak out about such things because supposedly (according to Foreman) they all have a way of working themselves out.
But have you ever been at a crossroads in your life? Where you’re sort of “flying in formation” not entirely sure about where to go from here? I think that there are many paths to happiness for me but I kind of want to know the outcome before deciding. It’s kind of like someone flipping to the end of a “Choose Your Own Adventure” book and then deciding which end result they like the best and working backwards so they make the right decisions along the way (please tell me I am not the only one that did that!) I don’t know. I have so many happy things in my life I just wish there was a little more stability. Not settling down mind you – cause I know I’m not ready to “settle down” or get a house cat or any of those other things but to know that something in my life was solid…meh, I know the answer to this. I know that I just need to be patient and things will all come in time. Patience however is not one of my strongest virtues. I guess I’ll have to work on that. Maybe I can do some of that work here…