Okay, I am trying not to freak out. I know that I am an intelligent human being but right now I wish I could just quit school and go to Fort MacMurray, live with Foreman happily ever after and never have to confront the failures of my life. (Oh my goodness even writing that shows me how much of a drama queen I am. Today I got one of my exam marks and it was BAD. And this was just after our professor told us we're marked on a scale with 87 people so basically even if you have good marks they'll end up being bad. I wanted to throw up. What am I doing????? What part of me thinks I can do medical school if I'm not even doing well in my nursing class. Or that I'll get any scholarships to help with the rapidly approaching black hole of debt. And now I have a paper due on Wednesday in the same class and I am crippled with self doubt. I know that all I need to do is "just keep swimming" as that fish in "Finding Nemo" says but I often feel that I'm closer to drowning.