This morning my roomate Methos was talking about what he was doing today and reminded me that he was going to Dr. Teeth's 25th birthday party tonight with Canoegirl.
I had forgotten about this and suddenly felt...i don't know...strange. I guess because with most of our parties within the choir group everyone is always invited to everything, especially big parties. If it was a small party I could justify in my head that it isn't just me that isn't invited but I know that my roommates are invited and probably some of the other people I know that after our break-up Dr. Teeth classified as "my friends". I didn't want this distinction. I thought that all of our friends could remain our friends and for the most part I think they've all done a good job of maintaining the relationships they want. But from what I gather this is a big party and I feel like I'm the only one not invited which I of course, totally understand but it just makes me sad. Which is stupid because I'm not inviting Dr. Teeth to the wedding. I don't know. I'm rambling. I think I just wished this post-breakup experience turned out differently. I know we can't be "friends" because we never really were "friends" but I just wish things were different I guess.